The last few months have been full of ups and downs, but the process of going through all of that has brought about so much learning and healing.

Healing a marriage, a family, but most importantly healing myself. This journey has been grueling at times but much needed and by no means is it over, it’s a continuing process. I feel the need to express this more in this blog so here it goes…

I have spent much of my life trying to be somebody everyone likes, the people pleaser, adapting to any situation trying not to make waves. I’ve been so busy trying to be everything to everyone else I lost myself. Many things that have happened in my life have shaped that part of me. I experienced rejection from a very young age. That made me feel like to keep people in my life I had to be what they wanted because I wouldn’t be wanted or accepted if I didn’t. I have had this urge to be loved and liked at all costs. As I’ve grown and life has evolved I realized I needed to stand up more, but was always afraid of losing relationships if I did. I was rarely being true to myself and what I needed.

I was at a point not too long ago that I had my fill. I felt like I needed to make a change. I stood up for myself and put my needs first. It was the hardest thing I have ever done. I was telling someone I loved very much that I could no longer be quiet. My voice needed to be heard. As it turns out that brought about a much needed change and healing for them as well. It sparked an internal desire for them to improve and be the person they needed to be. I realized that to give love fully and to be truly loved I HAD to use my voice.

Keeping my feelings buried for so long started to bring on physical ailments. So I began the process of healing emotionally and physically. I have always believed in a mind, body, spirit connection and what I was going through is proof of that. I have had anxiety and depression my entire life. Instead of dealing with the emotions as they came I just wanted to be numb. I have tried probably every depression medication out there just to put a band-aid on something that I needed to express with my voice. It feels good to finally do that and I am glad to say that I don’t want to be numb anymore.

To heal me and my family, I began working with an energy healer….I know this isn’t main stream but then again I’m not either, I see dead people. I was given a gift that has helped many and I felt like I was at a stall, I couldn’t help others no matter how hard I tried until I worked on myself. In working with my sweet friend Linda I have discovered that my gift could become stronger as I released many of the old issues and junk from my past and was given validation thru Spirit that I needed to be just where I am today. In her gift of healing and helping me I have found and enhanced my own special talent. Not only do I have a voice, but I have a connection with the real me that I truly believe has been dying to come out for a very long time.

I have always believed that people come into your life for a reason I’m so grateful for this crazy ride and the people I have to share it with. There have been many lately that have gone above and beyond to help and strengthen me when it was hard to even take the next breath. I feel so blessed to have so many truly caring wonderful family and friends in my life.

So what’s the moral of this story? Use your voice! Stand up for YOU! If people want to be in your life they really will do what is needed to stay, if not let them go. I can take care of me and I am a better mother, wife, friend, daughter, sister and medium for it. If you are struggling and need a hand, please let me help! Let me use my gift and what I have learned on my journey to help ease your burden or maybe offer some help to work through it.

Lots of love,